The knock came around midnight. A soft, hesitant rap that still somehow managed to jolt me awake from a dead sleep. My heart hammered against my ribs. Who could it possibly be at this hour? I padded through the dark apartment, squinting through the peephole.It was him. My dad.He looked… wrong. Dishevelled, his usually impeccably styled hair falling across his forehead, eyes red-rimmed and distant. He was clutching a duffel bag, a cheap, worn thing I’d never seen before. My stomach dropped. I unlocked the door, the click echoing too loudly in the silence.
“Dad? What in the world… are you okay?” My voice was a whisper, laced with immediate dread.
He stepped inside, not meeting my gaze, and I could smell the stale scent of travel, or maybe just a profound weariness, clinging to him. He didn’t hug me, didn’t even look like he wanted to. He just stood there, the duffel bag thudding softly as he set it down.
“I… I need to tell you something.” His voice was raspy, broken. He didn’t sound like my dad.
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I led him to the living room, flicking on a dim lamp. The soft glow did little to alleviate the tension radiating off him. He sank onto the edge of my sofa, hands clasped between his knees, staring at the floor.
“Dad, you’re scaring me. What is it?”
He took a shaky breath, then another. Finally, he lifted his eyes, and they were full of an anguish I’d never seen before. “I’m leaving your mother.”
The words hung in the air, heavy and brutal. Leaving your mother. My mind reeled. It didn’t make sense. They were… they were them. My parents. Married for over thirty years. They had their arguments, sure, who didn’t? But they were a unit. A rock.
“What? No. No, you’re not. What are you talking about?” I could feel my own breath catching in my throat. This was a nightmare.
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“I’ve already left,” he corrected, his voice flat. “That’s… that’s why I’m here. I packed a bag. I just drove.”
He just drove. From their home, three states away, in the dead of night, to my apartment. My head spun. “Why? What happened? Is Mom okay? Did you fight? You can fix this, you always do!” I was pleading, begging for him to tell me this was a misunderstanding.
He shook his head slowly. “There’s nothing to fix. It’s over.” He still wouldn’t look directly at me. This isn’t about a fight, is it?
“Dad, please. Just tell me. Why? Was it… did you fall out of love?” My voice cracked on the last word. I couldn’t imagine a world where my parents weren’t together.
He finally met my gaze, and his eyes were glistening. “It’s not that simple. We just… we grew apart. People change. And I… I couldn’t do it anymore. The pretence. The… the lie.”
The lie? That word pricked at me. It felt sharper than just “growing apart.”
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“What lie, Dad? What are you talking about? Mom seems happy. You both seemed happy.” I was getting angry now, a hot wave of indignation mixing with my fear. How could he just appear on my doorstep, drop this bombshell, and offer such vague, unsatisfying answers?
He sighed, a deep, shuddering sound that seemed to carry the weight of years. “I know it’s hard to understand. And I know you’re angry. You have every right to be. But I had to come here, to tell you myself. Before… before it all comes out.”
“Comes out? What’s going to come out?” My panic was rising. This wasn’t just a divorce. This was something bigger, something darker. Something he’s been hiding.
He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, his voice dropping to a near whisper. “There’s… there’s something I should have told you a long time ago. Something your mother and I agreed to keep secret. To protect you.”
My blood ran cold. Protect me? The words echoed in my mind, forming a terrifying premonition. Oh god, what could it be?
“What is it, Dad? Just tell me. NOW.” My voice was barely a growl.
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He closed his eyes for a moment, then opened them, and the raw agony in them was almost unbearable to witness. “The reason I’m divorcing your mother isn’t just about us growing apart. It’s because I can’t live this life anymore. And soon, the truth will come out, whether I want it to or not.”
He paused, taking another shuddering breath. My entire body was rigid, braced for impact.
“You see, your biological father… he’s very sick. Terminal. And he wants to meet you.”
The air left my lungs in a silent whoosh. My mind went blank. My biological father? The words ricocheted around my skull, meaningless and yet earth-shattering. My biological father was sitting right in front of me. This man. My dad.
“What are you talking about? You are my biological father!” I was yelling now, the sound tearing through the quiet apartment. My vision blurred.
He shook his head, tears streaming freely down his face. “No. I’m not. I’ve been your dad, for all these years, but… I’m not your biological father.” He looked at me, a desperate plea in his eyes. “Your mother… she was with someone else, before me. For a very brief time. And by the time we got together, she was already pregnant. With you.”
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My world imploded. It wasn’t just a lie. It was my entire foundation. My entire identity. This man, my father, the one who taught me to ride a bike, who held me when I cried, who walked me down the aisle at my wedding… wasn’t my father at all. And my mother… my mother had kept this from me my entire life.
THIRTY-TWO YEARS. Thirty-two years of a carefully constructed lie.
“She… she told me she didn’t know who the father was at first,” he choked out, his voice thick with sorrow. “But then, we got serious. We fell in love. And we decided… we decided to keep it a secret. To protect you from… from the truth. And to protect our new family. I loved you from the moment you were born. I never saw you as anything but my own. And she never wanted you to feel… different.”
He rubbed his temples, his gaze fixed on some distant point. “But he never went away. Your biological father. He tried to stay in touch, years ago, but we pushed him away. Told him we were handling it. And now… now he’s dying. And he found a way to contact me again. He sent me a letter. A photo. He just wants to see you. Just once. Before he goes.”
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I stumbled backward, hitting the wall. The cool plaster against my back did nothing to ground me. My parents’ divorce. The cryptic comments. The duffel bag. It wasn’t about him leaving my mom because they grew apart. It wasn’t even about another woman.
It was about a secret so monumental, so deeply buried, it had just exploded the very concept of my family.
My dad, the man I’d always called Dad, was sitting in my living room, crying, because he had to divorce my mother before my biological father, a stranger, died, and forced the ultimate truth upon me.
My mother knew. All this time. She let me believe…
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The betrayal wasn’t just from him. It was from both of them. My entire life, a carefully orchestrated illusion. And now, at midnight, with a sudden knock on the door, it had all shattered into a million irreparable pieces. I stared at him, my mouth open, but no sound came out. My dad. My not dad. My eyes burned, but the tears wouldn’t fall. I felt utterly, completely numb. And terribly, terribly alone.
