I never thought I’d be confessing this. Not to anyone. It’s too raw, too deeply woven into the fabric of my life. But it happened, and it changed everything.My daughter had been away for two months. Her first big summer trip, a wilderness program hundreds of miles from home. The house felt cavernous without her laughter, without her endless questions, without her messy creativity spilling out of every room. I missed her terribly. Every day, I’d check the mailbox, hoping for a letter, a funny drawing, anything to bridge the distance.One Tuesday, among the bills and junk mail, there it was. A postcard.
It wasn’t a scenic landscape or a kitschy tourist trap photo. It was an abstract watercolor of a winding path through a forest, dappled with sunlight. Serene. Almost too serene. My first thought was, It’s not from her. Her postcards were always bright, full of exclamation points and smudged pencil marks. This was… elegant.
I flipped it over. The handwriting was unfamiliar. Beautiful, cursive, almost artistic. No return address. The stamp was local, just from a neighboring state. A general postmark, nothing specific.
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The message was brief:
“Thinking of you. Hope you find the peace you deserve. Soon.”
My heart gave a strange little lurch. What in the world? It wasn’t a holiday greeting. It wasn’t a joke. It felt… personal. But to whom? And from whom?
I stared at it. “Thinking of you.” Was it meant for me? I certainly wasn’t expecting anything like this. “Hope you find the peace you deserve.” It sounded like an old friend, perhaps, someone who knew I’d been struggling with recent work stress, but the handwriting was definitely not anyone I knew. And the “Soon”? That was the part that truly unsettled me. Soon what?
I turned it over and over in my hands. It wasn’t threatening, not exactly, but it felt… heavy. A secret message, delivered by mistake? Or perhaps it was meant for my daughter. Could she have made a secret friend, or encountered someone during her trip who felt compelled to send this? But if so, why to our home address, and with such a cryptic message?
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Days bled into a week. The postcard sat on the kitchen counter, a quiet, unsettling presence. I picked it up countless times, examining the watercolor again, the elegant loops of the writing. I even tried to subtly match the style to anything I could remember from childhood, from old letters, from anywhere. Nothing. I started to feel paranoid. Was someone watching us? Was it a stranger who had somehow learned about my daughter’s absence? My mind raced through every dark possibility, every crime documentary I’d ever seen.
I considered calling the police. For a postcard? It sounded ridiculous. But the unease festered. I kept it hidden when my husband was home, not wanting to worry him unnecessarily, or admit to this strange paranoia. It’s probably nothing. A wrong address. A prank. But I knew, deep down, it wasn’t. This felt too deliberate.
The day my daughter was due back, I cleaned the house with a frantic energy, trying to push the postcard from my mind. I wanted her homecoming to be pure joy, unburdened by my strange anxieties. I made her favorite meal. I put fresh flowers in her room.
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When I saw her walking towards me at the airport, my heart swelled. She looked taller, stronger, a little more weathered from the sun and the wilderness. She launched herself into my arms, smelling of pine and campfire smoke, and for a moment, the postcard was utterly forgotten.
We got home, unpacked, talked for hours about her adventures. The stories tumbled out of her, vibrant and alive. Later that evening, as she was telling me about a particularly challenging river crossing, I remembered the postcard.
“Oh,” I said, trying to sound casual, “something odd arrived while you were away.”
I walked to the counter and picked it up, holding it out to her. “This came last week. I couldn’t figure out who sent it. The handwriting isn’t familiar. Any ideas?”
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She took it from my hand, her expression one of mild curiosity. She glanced at the watercolor image, then flipped it over, her eyes scanning the elegant script.
Her face went utterly, terrifyingly still. The color drained from it, leaving her complexion ashen. Her eyes widened, not with surprise, but with… recognition. And something else. A profound, almost unbearable sadness.
“No,” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “NO.”
My blood ran cold. “What is it? Do you know who sent it? Is it bad?” I gripped her arm, a sudden, cold dread washing over me.
She didn’t answer immediately. Her gaze was fixed on the postcard, as if it held some terrible, unfolding prophecy. A single tear traced a path down her cheek. Then another.
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“Tell me,” I pleaded, my voice tight with fear. “Please, just tell me.”
She finally looked up, her eyes brimming. “It’s from her,” she choked out, her voice breaking.
“From who?” I demanded, completely bewildered. “Who is ‘her’?”
She took a shaky breath. “My… my grandmother.”
I recoiled as if she’d struck me. “YOUR WHAT?” My voice rose, sharp and disbelieving. “My mother is dead. She died when I was a child.” The words were a mantra, a truth I’d carried, a grief I’d processed decades ago. My father had told me the story countless times, painting a picture of a loving, gentle woman taken too soon.
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“No,” she whispered, shaking her head slowly, tears streaming down her face now. “She’s not. She’s alive.“
My world tilted on its axis. ALIVE? A crushing wave of disbelief, anger, and a bewildering hope washed over me. “What are you talking about? How could you possibly know that?”
She dropped the postcard onto the counter, covering her face with her hands, sobbing. “I… I found your old box. In the attic. The one with the faded letters. And the photo albums. I was looking for… for something for a history project.”
I remembered that box. Old sentimental things I hadn’t touched in years. My father had curated what went into it, I thought.
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“There were letters,” she continued, her voice muffled, “from your father. He wrote about her leaving. Not dying. He said she left him. And you. He said she was never coming back.”
I felt dizzy. A lie. A lie my father had woven for fifty years. A lie I had lived, believed, grieved. A phantom mother, when she had simply walked away. My own father had created this elaborate fiction.
“I didn’t understand,” she whispered. “Why would he lie to you? So I… I started looking. I pieced things together. Old addresses. A name. It took months. But I found her. I found my grandmother.“
My breath caught in my throat. My daughter. My sweet, curious, persistent daughter. While I was living a fabricated history, she had unearthed the truth. She had found the woman I thought was dead.
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“You… you spoke to her?” My voice was barely a rasp.
She nodded, wiping her eyes. “We’ve been corresponding. Emails, mostly. She told me she never stopped thinking about you. She said she made a terrible mistake, but she was too afraid to come back, especially after your father told her he’d made sure you thought she was gone forever.”
The silence in the kitchen was deafening. The lie. The decades of silence. My father’s betrayal. My mother’s existence. And my daughter, holding all this heavy, impossible truth, all this time.
“So, the postcard…” I managed to say, gesturing to it. “What does ‘Hope you find the peace you deserve. Soon’ mean from her?”
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My daughter looked at the postcard again, her eyes wide with a different kind of fear, a new realization. “It’s not just a letter anymore,” she said, her voice trembling. “We talked about her wanting to reconnect, eventually. But the ‘Soon’… she never said ‘soon’. She told me she was too scared to ever really come back, to face you. But this… this means she’s actually coming.“
My mother was alive. My daughter knew. And now, this postcard wasn’t just a cryptic message. It was an announcement. A direct challenge to the decades of lies. And we were both equally, utterly unprepared for what was about to walk through our door.
